9/1/12

 新的一年到了，去年发生了很多事。真的还是想着他， 该怎么办才好呢？ 我也不知道。就顺其自然吧。是我的就是我的，不是在怎么办也不是。 我在等待缘份到来的那一天，说真的缘份存在的吗？我真的很想知道。没有你的曰子开始时，没有一天的开心是从心笑出来的。真的希望那天会来到。功课真的很差，差到没有字可以形容了，希望这一次可以考好一点，要不然的话就等着说再见了。今天是第一天去上课，哪里知道去学校发呆。老师没有来。就是这样过我的一天了。很闷的一天。

缘份？真的存在吗？我希望真的存在。

       你离开了我， 真的不知该怎么做。你说谁知我们未来有缘份的话还可以在一起？ 我觉得你明明就是在安慰我。 缘份？真的存在吗？你相信这世界里有缘份吗？我说不可能但你却答我这世界没有不可能的事。是真的没吗？不爱了，未来还会有可能会爱吗？ 如果会的话我就会很高兴。 说真的。活了这么久，你是我第一个遇见对我最好的了。 要是我可以到回那时候那大概有多好 ， 没有了你我的心一片空白 。  不知该如何形容那样的痛，你说谁知会找到更好的，我不同意！因为你对我来说是最好的了。

       如果这个世界上真的有谁知这个字每一个人都可以活得开开心心。朋友说得对， 我在怎么想，怎么痛，怎么折磨自己你也不会知道。 全都是我的错，要是一开始好好来就不会像现在这样。是我错过了。说真的我真的很用心的去爱你，我并没有怀疑你是你对我的冷淡弄到我那样想。 我答应你的事我做，你这样离开了，我真的很伤心很苦很痛。但是，为什么你很像一点感觉也没有？难道你一点难过也没有吗 ？我希望有一天你还会爱我，我很期待那一刻。你永远都会是我最爱的人。

       虽然我已经不是你最重要的人但我还是希望，有时你会想起我，找下我。我知道勉强是没有幸福的但我用了我的全心去爱你，要我这么突然放开你真的很难。对不起因为每天烦你还有弄到你反感，我真的不知我该怎么做了。我会等你的！真的只需要多一次。一定会做到很好的！主呀， 救救我啊 。 我真的不知要怎样面对。 从来没有后悔过这么爱你。希望有一天你会回到我身边。真的很怀念我们的一切，你的拥抱，你的关心，你的吻，所有有关你的一切。你说如果要爱我的话，就要爱我自己先，我可以爱我自己但我爱我自己我还可以爱你吗？我也不明白你的这一句。没有人会比我更爱你亲爱的。我会远远的爱着你，开着你。好好保重了亲爱的。 

                                                                                 ♥ 最爱你的我 ♥

                                                                                                              

As i wish .

Well nothing to do now  ~ is tym to update . :D

16 sep (friday) : today he bring me to dinner wid ur family ( his mum's b'day ) at QQ, had a happy dinner . Eat until my stomach so full oh ~ i waited 4 the ice-cream but so slow . I wanted to eat the ice-cream so badly oh . huhu :( nvm , maybe next tym i can try dat .  i feels like evrything is coming bck slowly . Hpe so it will last long . Beside dat i oso hve to control my temper . : -* i'll do my very best .

17 sep (sat ) : 2day planning to watch johnny english but cant make it coz no ticket , so we go yamcha only . B4 dat sis intro me 1 new fren , even though is pondan but so frenly . :) i oso gt tapao some salted fish from thre . hahaha . XD (basong salted fish ah ) ever try ? XD


18 sep (sun ) : 2day dint go yamcha . We go watch johnny english . Dear early come fetch me , we spend like 4hours 2gther . Two of us ONLY ah . Long tym dy dint like dat . :) happy .


I hope everything will be fine n it will become more better . :D <3

i loveyousomuchdearglennchok . <3 :-*

Scary ~

Class start liao ~ omg ! all subject so hard oh , the account i dun understand at all oh .oh gui lo english lagi tu . How i wan to target all pass this sem ? :'( i got japanese , economics all nid to hafal . My brain cant take it la so much oh . But will try my best la , hope so i can clear pass oh . If not my 3 frens graduate liao i stil thre study oh I DONT WANT! i wan 2gther wid them oh . Now i wonder when final comes kan how i want to ans my japanese paper ah ? so scaryy ~ 1 more week holiday again , hari raya holiday 1 week hmm~ wan to go wer le ? planning wan to spend my tym wid dear but takkan we two only go pulau play like dat ? sure he dun wan n say boring de la . haizz. wan 2 ren shi jie oso hard oh . Hope he had planned smethng la . 

Last nyt went to upperstar . Sorry coz made pei2 , jonathan waited 4 so long . Hehe . The 1st thng jon said is Wah ! u bath so long oh ? haha . sory fren made u wait so long :P After dat dear talked bout the Tong Hing Haunted House . Yu Hui oso scare to hear liao ni , pei2 n me de face macam scare liao this . But joanna look steady only oh . Jonathan keep on said ON ON ! Joanna said i wait u all here . hahaha. But at last the plan not jadi . We all go home liao . hahaha . Maybe next tym gua :D

Our 8 mothsary ~ 08.08.11

8 aug 2011 is our 8 monthsary . I m so glad dat can tahan until now . huhu . I m so happy to b wid u dear . Sometimes i argue wid u bcoz the way u treat me make me feels like u dun love me anymore but u owez say dat i like to think too much . I duno is im the one who think too much or u lie to me la . I hope so dat u wont lie to me :) During our 8 monthsary is ah lai's birthday also . We went to ken shop coz ah lai celebrate there . We ate dumpling , the birthday cake so nice eh . After eat cake this is wat happen . Ahlai ask us to drink . 1st tym i saw my dear drink alcoholic drink . OMG ! and during the day dear let me drink also la . Nothing much to say liao . Some photo about the day ~

Gin zong ~

My love one ~

 Show my teeth ~ haha .

Our sopo n so lao face ~

Happy2 ~ loveyousomuchmuch ~ <3 <3 <3

Fri ,Sat 12,13/8/11

Friday

Planning to watch love is the only answer but my dear late again so not sempat to watch dat movie lo then we watch the fortune buddies lo .

The fortune buddies

The most funny part is about the angry bird part . Movie okok lo . We reach suria already kan duno wan watch wat movie ngam2 got this movie de ticket so juz buy n watch only lo . After that direct go home .

Saturday , go suria again . Wid dear , pei n jonathan . Late again . Haizz. then wat to do la we juz buy the 11.10pm de ticket lo . After buy ticket we go lintas yamcha sit at sang nyuk mian shop eat dumplings n drink then we go take jonathan de cake . Inside the car dear so noisy until jonathan n pei said u can dun so fan mah ? haha . pity my dear . Jonathan drive his viva zai :D me n dear follow his car. then we go back suria n watch movie . nasib dint late again , hehe . We watch this movie

Love is the only answer .

I love this movie oh , so nice le . But my dear watch til neck pain . -.-''' after movie go home oso . 

Hang out tym ~

Last nyt went to amp square wid my love , pei n jonathan . So expensive oh ~ fuhh .. but enjoy our day oso la . We sing until 3am . The package included a lot of food oh 4 jugs of drinks , food n fruit . Dear sang the everyday im shuffling dat song n shuffle thre rely damn funny eh ~ we all laugh like hell . After dat they sot2 go n mix the cola n sprite la , cola + orange la , cola + fresh orange la . Drink it like chivas n keep on say sai gi . Rely crazy that nyt la even though we 4 ppl only . So fun . Hope so nxt tym gt chance like dat again . hehe ~ Today , my dear2 slep like pig until 5pm++ oh . OMG ! rely like pig . He promise to accompany me today , i called him almost 10++ calls . At last , after he woke up we go out . 1st we go yamcha awhile then go to sang nyuk mian wid pei n jonathan . After dat we go to suria n watch movive . We planning to watch the love movie but at last we watch the monkey one coz the love one no ticket liao . After the movie we dun understand wat is the movie trying to so . So LOL la . After dat we go to JP yamcha , dear order the mix grill . JP's mix grill ?!! OMG ! buruk la . My dear said the mix grill like rubbish la , i oso say yalo . Then he asked me back  then we ate rubbish la tu ? i was like ya lo , lol ! hahaha . The rubbish mix grill costs RM15 . mygodness. go eat ha mian better oh . No more mix grill at jp next tym . Btw 2mrw is me n my dear 8 months already , hope it can last long . 4 more months to go to reach 1 year . if i maintain my attitude dun fight wid him sure can tahan more than that , hope so i can do it . We argue a lot ,i cried a lot n v spend happy tym togther now is 8 months already , i m so HAPPY!!!I will handle it no matter how big problem might be n hw big is the problem we have to get through it . Hope in the future we can spend more happy moment dear . I LOVE YOU SO MUCH DEAR . Happy eight monthsary . I'm waiting for the 1 anniversary . :D

Normal ~

today went to warisan walk awhile lo . then go back home , bath , dinner and wash toilet . Then gt ready to go out wid my dear2 . i go down early coz i scare if late i cant go down anymore . 5days dint see him miss him dy . i wait at downstair almost 1 hour :( at the same tym is raining . thanks God i gt bring my laptop n broadband go down . Still sempat to chat wid my panda awhile . hahaha . He called me ask me to wait awhile more , he's coming from putatan . Omg punya jauh . All the ppl look see look see me lagi like nvr see ppl sit at downstair . Seriously today i juz release that my place here got a lot of fan cong ! WTH! while i sit thre 4 1 hour , i only saw 1 pain chinese the others all fan cong , vun tun . i hate it la . Then my dear fetch me liao , 1st 5 min we dint talk at all this tot he still angry wid me . fuh ~ but at last ok la got talk oso :D we went to frenz yamcha . Saw pery wid his frenz . Then dear told me nxt sat he maybe wil go his fren's farewell party , hope so i can go wid him if not im gonna die bored at home . When he sent me home he told me so tired :( but when i reach home awhile he called me said his fren asked him to go play game awhile -.- i rely dun understand y if to spend tym wid me u r tired but if play game u so many energy . This question i think liao so long . But nvm la juz let it be , at least u still care bout me :) love him ♥ ♥ ♥

Exam ~

Ok exam is coming soon, its on the 18th july , im so scare i duno how i wan to pass . haizz.. My marketing test was suck! :( the f&b control i failed also , i think i cant clear pass at this sem liao . :( have to start study liao , if not i really can cook my slip result wid chicken soup . Cant play2 anymore , next week is study week so most of the day no nid to go to clge juz stdy at home . Have to appreaciate the tym to study . I m so nervous bout the final . The f&b control i dun understand at all , mataii la . Then the marketing n malaysian studies i cant memories it, my brain so weak eh , a bit only then will 4get . So noob punya brain la . Haiya ! But stil i nid to struggle on it le . Good luck to me do my best .

8 - 7 - 11 (7 months )

Today after class reach home eat maggi then sleep . Like a pig , hahaha .. XD Wake up then go watch movie awhile , dad go out dinner with his friend . After he went out then i go bath while waiting 4 my dear dear to fetch me . We went to hilltop eat ikan panggang ( Pari ) , sotong , meehon singapore , dumpling . Super duper full oh wen im on my way to the restaurant my stomach is flat de but after i ate the food i feels like my stomach rely wan to explode already hahaha ... when we wan to go home, so hard to go out frm the parking bcoz the stupid white alphard duno how to parking properly . Dear mati2 wan to go out so sempit , the people juz stand there n see only if we gt kena langgar his car . Stupid guy duno how to park side parking ,  dear said if kena langgar come runding la !! tot i scare ah ?! budu  ppl duno how to park car . I oso diam2 only so scary eh . Then try to cool him down lo , After dat he said i bau sotong :( he lagi la bau bawang . haha . So happy to spend tym wid you dear . :)  today is the 7 months we together liao , so happy hopefully it will last long ♥ :D thank you so much .  2mrw gonna spend tym wid my dear again , hope everything will be ok n we two will be happy wont fight bcoz of small matter. Amen . ♥ ♥ ♥ i finish eat reach home liao my dad pun not yet come home lagi , home alone again , dats y i got tym to update my blog . hehe .

Breakfast at Sri Keningau ~

Today after ms rovena class joanna, carissa n me went to fong ip but we duno wan to eat wat then we went Sri Keningau. When we wan to sit down dy suddenly gt 1 worker (guy) sit at our table . Three of us punya eyes was like O.O . I ate mee hoon goreng ayam , joanna pula mee bandung daging then carissa sit thre see us eat n talk2 . After dat , joanna asked 4 the menu bha then the worker asked mau pakai menu juga ka ? i was like  O.o Knapa  ? ndk blh ka ? lau mcm tu buat pa la menu kamu tu ? -.- after that when i asked 4 more limau uina, the worker punya muka mcm i ada hutang wid her this . punya la... no frenly at all . After we ate our breakfast , we stay at lounge play game while waiting 4 our nest class. Which is mr.mali's class.. fuhh, nid to wait so lama again . So sleepy again ni bha .

Trip :D

Long tym dint update my blog, im back .  :D last month a lot of things happen . I m so thankful dat everything is ok ryt now . now things is better than b4  . i juz come back frm a sandakan trip wid my dear n frens :) im so happy n enjoy this trip . this is the second tym dat i went to a far place wid him . the 1st place is kudat on my birthday at the same tym his grandmother b'day . Go thre had dinner n his sis n him bring me to tip of borneo have a look n took some pic . until now i still can recall back all the memories. Next tym if i go thre i wan to play the water , so clean ! :)
28 may midnyt he fetch me up then go eat wid fren b4 we start our journey to sandakan . Reach thre is almost 7.30am already . All ppl's face look so tired n sleepy but we all still go eat n direct go watch drag .My dad said dat the monkey is my cousin lol.. 1st im blurr i asked my dad my cousin ? O.o he ans me the monkey bha . i laugh like hell eh . hahaha... At nyt we oso went to sing k but so lan c this the sound dun like . Last nyt at thre we went to a restaurant name 'jia fan' or jia cai' ka dat i dun remember thre de taufu so nice eh , we ordered two . -.- my dear ate 3 mangkuk of rice i was like OMG , u nt full meh ? hahaha. but nvm la as long as he full  not hungry mah . Carissa intro me go 7-heaven taste the ice-cream so after we dinner went thre n eat ice-cream. ffuuhh~ so many ppl thre oh . We ordered banana boat i share wid my dear . i m the one who choose the 3 favour this . -.- not fair le . Dear said Wahh! the mint so nice oh , then eh the yam oso nice le the last is cream cookies okok only .  31 may is the last day at sandakan , we woke up then breakfast . After breakfast we went to Sipilok visit my cousin , hahahahaha. XD the monkey so cute le , flurry2 de . i wan to touch it but i scared later kena bite :D after sipilok we went to crocodile farm again . So many animal to see oh , rabbit is the most dat i love eh . SOOO CUUUTTTEE N FLLLUURRYYY. if can i wan to bring home this.  After dat we start our journey to go back kk dy , halfway we go tapao 'buntut' so nice this . My dear tapao 30 batang . Punyyaaa la... hahaa . 9pm smething i reach home safely . hehe . rely enjoy this trip . Hope to have trip again next tym . Thank you so much to my dear coz bring me to trip n take good care of me . So caring eventhough i merajuk he still try his best to pujuk me syg2 my head . I love him syg2 my head eh :D im so happy to have u GLENN CHOK JIA HAO . :D thank you so much my love.♥♥♥ u fullblast to the max  . :D

Like im his fren this -.-'''

So cute . Love him so damn much .

This is the ice-cream dat we ate . Banana boat but banana finish already so they replace the banana wid mango .

i had a lot of fun tym during this trip , hope so next trip will have more fun . He says he wan to bring me go far n hve fun as long as im happy . He said he wan to make me feel happiness . I can feel it now dear . Dun worry :) ♥

朋友~

真心的朋友是很难找到的。在多的朋友也没用， 如果当你遇到困难时不是没一个朋友都会帮你。我最珍惜的朋友不多,用手指都可以算出来。 那就是 Joanna Kong (Panda) , Pei Chen ( Miao Zai Sang) , Carissa ( penguin ) , Syvania ( stich ) , Bryan Yap , Serena Tai & Jayneice 。我最讨厌的是那种当他遇到困难是才找你的朋友。那不是在利用人吗？ 当你一无所有时你才会找你朋友的话那你就走吧，我不需要你在我身边。在我眼里你只是一堆垃圾。我真的很高兴又很幸运可以认识到真心对我的朋友。我爱我的朋友。

Sad .

This few days i feel so empty lonely n sad . i wonder he dun luv me anymore ? y the way he treat me nt like b4 anymore? ! got someone else already ? i juz nt use to it . if u gt smeone else plz tel me early so dat i wont be hurt dat much . i really duno y i feel like dat . u change od or i think too much . i hpe so is im the one who think too much la . dat day u asked me y kip saying dat u change od ? bcoz the way u r now is nt like b4 . b4 u owez gt tym 4 me , care bout me . How bout nw? u go work no tym 4 me od , after u reach home dinner bath then slep oso no tym od , then sometimes u go play badminton or game . go back home oso dint inform me . i am worried u knw . haizzz .. i am talking to my ownself here. i duno wan to share to who od . i juz nid ur attention ur care ur love is dat difficult ? u said u will make sure dat i am happy n u dun like to see me cry . but ? Haizzz ... i am speechless. now i owez wonder wat if one day i am out of ur life od ? wat will happen ? huhu... i myself cant ans this question . i oso cant imagine how i wan to get back to my past n 4gt bout u . huhu. its rely hard 4 me to do like dat . i wont leave u til u leave me coz i dun wan to hurt u . Love u too much . wat u said dat day really hurt me . u owez say dat duno wat i wan . haizz . :'( :'( :'( wer is all the happy moment that we been through ? ! y all gone dy ? can i be happy owez?

Day before b'day n after b'day

1 apr friday . i receive a bear bear from benny so happy oh . after class we all went home . At nyt my dad , dear,pei zhen n jonathan we dinner at archie's shop thre. So sad carissa, joanna and jayneice cant join us . We talked a lot . Pei saw a ppl de nose keep on moving like pig this she said . Like this la  OoO . We all so bad keep on laughing thre.After the dinner we went to suria sing k ,sing until so late eh . Have fun too :D
 2 apr sat  . i woke up late after that my fon was on silent mode . i thought my dear on his way to kudat already. sekali i see the clock , 11.55pm od . I fast2 go n ready n pack my things, 12.30pm like dat he called me ask me to get ready . After awhile will come and fetch me , after i packed my thing i go down n wait . I was so nervous that time . Huhu. Our journey takes 2 hours like that la . the road suck la so many kelapa sawit there eh . so nice n so many coconut too . hehe.. after we reach there rest awhile then bath get ready to his grandmum b'day dinner. After the dinner , dear, his sis n i we stay at there n yamcha . At the same tym i rushing 4 me assignment sunday have to pass to joanna them already . After i done my work my dear bring me to cc he DA dota =.= i play FB thre. The next day , we woke up take bath n go to his grandmum hse n eat . After eat dear ,his sis n me we went to tip of borneo , the sea water is so nice le clean dao my god ! So clean , i feels like i wan to go n swim already but i cant so sad :( but nvm still got nxt tym n i hope he will bring me go thre swim nxt tym .We took a few pic , the tym we go the sun is freaking hot . We carry umbrella. haha. After we capture2 , we go buy some drink n stay at the resort thre drink n c the view of the sea. It is so beautiful . I capture i pic dat my dear eating the ice-cream like kids but he so stupid go n delete it liao . :'(  neway i rely have fun in this journey . Eventhough is kindda boring but i rely enjoy the moment dat we spend together .This is some of our pic :D

 Freaking hot .

 Happy ~

The sea so beautiful oh . :)

  Picture2 wid his sis XD

Tip of borneo . :D

View :D

What a hot day ?!

What a bad day . I am here now wait 4 my dad to pick me up . Just now my mood is so damn good but now some idiot spoil my mood. So freaking annoying . Laugh oso like cant breath anymore then keep on say catwalk2 thing like u so pretty. Puiii .. plz la , i feel like wan to volmit oh . Noisy like hell . I feels like want to ask u all can i slap u all ?!! or can u plz f#$* off frm this place ?! haizz.. so damn hot la , the weather is hot enough od but now + u all came here + i hot oh !!

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Today i wait my dad to fetch me wait 4 1 hour. alone :'( just online only. nothing else i can to do. neway today nothing special la. Laugh a lot at class with pei pei n jonathan . I just cant wait for my b'day! Hope everything will be okay~ go smooth ... but not less hope i enjoy you my love fei tut tut ♥ :D Miss him a lot already  :'(

13.03.11

Spend two days and three nights with my mum .. so happy.. just now around 1 something we go airport.. after all the things done. My dad, mum n me stay at the cafe and drink awhile.. after that my mum go in ..i cried when she say bye to me :'( i gonna miss mummy so much.. huhu.. this time she came back her leave a lot of memories here.. :'( my life come back to normal life. Nobody talk to me like i talked to my mum, go buy things ... Spend all the moment together. I miss it! How to work hard and earn a lot a lot of money to bring my mum back here... huhu.. neway,today my dear bring me to go watch ppl drifting.So pro oh but our face full of the tayar power. =.='  Spend happy time with my dear. Today he say something that make me cry . So "Gan Dong". :') 

The night before our third months.

Today is my babe jayneice b'day...celebrate at terminal 3. B4 that my dear bring me to 

eat 'bak kut teh'.OHMYGOODNESS. While i order my food i saw the small cockroach  

walk here and there.When the food come i have no appetite to eat anymore but what to 

do don't want to waste the food so i just eat lo... after awhile i stomachache -.- but my 

dear ok only .I am curious about that la. After that he bring me to Sutera . Then we direct 

go to jayneice b'day. Pierrie open a lot pf beer. Huhu. She drunk, hahahaha..While she 

eating her cake NAH! mati ko kena letak cream at all ppl de face,really enjoy today.XD 

btw is me n my dear's third months together. I am so happy to have him. nothing much 

to say already.. i love you all .Here are some of the picture that we capture

this four model lai de.. haha...XD two without spec n two wid spec.

This is me and My Dear.My dear's smile cost thousand of million.That why he dint smile. Haha.

Birthday girl <3 + Me